Truthfully, I forgot about my blog until that day.
Which is the day that I tell someone about my blog. LOL
Never mind. This is not a big deal. Isn't it? So..now i recall back my memory.
And, i remembered about you. Ya..you, my blog. HAHA
Anyway.. I said about my credit's not enough but I still want to go to college right?
Well, I'm still sticking with that plan. With the loan and stuff. HMMMMM...
STPM is like..too hard for me. HAIH.
But I didn't 'accomplish' my 'mission'. Haha.
I said I wasn't thinking about having any relationship this year, and I also said I didn't have the mood. LOL
You knowwww..accidents happen, right? haha.
In that case, which means we won't know what will happen in the future. So, better don't promise anything first. I'm like this...how to say...did nothing for the past 9 months.
A month later, I'm gonna face this bloody exam. Which will kill me. ARRGGHHH!
So I gotta prepare. LOL.
I don't know what should I write. Whatever that pops out in my mind, i'll just type it down, in case I forgot I even thought about these stuff in the future.
I'm so useless. =[
My memory is kinda out of service.
It's like..I can't remember stuff. HAIH.
And for my own sake, I have to 'read' whole book of biology in this month because apparently, I am really like a person who never studied biology. In my mind, I don't have any biology stuff in it. OUCCCHHHH..
One month man..with this type of memory, i have to squeeze everything in my mind.
Trust me, it's impossible.
I know I know..nothing is impossible right? HAHA.
Oh ya.. Elin is in aussie already. AWWWW.. I'll miss her. =D

kisses and hugs***
to someone =)

future?

Exam's next week but I just started to study since last night, or you can say as this morning.
Whoa. im so doomed.
LOL.
Anyway..I didn't know why Im having exam next week but haven't start studying yet im so relax.
I didn't want to study actually.
I don't like. Which i have to like and accept this thing because if I don't, what the heck am I going to do next time and how would I actually survive with all my spending thing and so on.
It's just..i don't like to study.

I like to..ya know..do nothing, not exactly nothing, I just like to do things the way i like + do the things i like. (which is hard for me to do that since im just in form4 this year =[ )
So..if I get to choose what I want to do in the future, i hope i get to choose the work or the road that i prefer.
I don't know why but i've never think of being in university.
I know credit's not enough for me to go to college but i prefer that.

Never mind..some will say that im thinking this too early but it's not actually.
Normally people think this from like...young? LOL
But i never think what type of road I want to walk in the future.
Maybe not that im not thinking. Maybe i just ignore what im thinking because i know it's not gonna happen?
Even though now im still young, I know i have responsibility for my family. Im their hope.
I have to live a life that's not my type in the future.
Maybe that's why now im actually living my own life.

It's true you know..
Maybe im just ignoring the dreams. LOL.
But it's okay..
It's fine..really. =]
Anyway..i've started thinking what i should do in the future, what course i should study next time and bla bla bla.
Im such a lazy person which hate to work under people but also can't do business by my own.
So..what should I do?
Haha.

Life's miserable enough so if you take a slightly-wrong step, will people blame you?
haha.
There's always a choose for you to make. The choice that you like or the choice that you don't like. Choose properly and then you'll have a perfect life. Isn't it?
I live in dream..live in beautiful beautiful dream that i hope i won't wake up.
But..time flies..and even now im still living in that paradise, i'll having to wake up one day and begin to live in reality.
It's not like im going to hell. So I won't stop myself to wake up when the time reaches.
But now..if can, i really just want to live in my paradise which is not so perfect but yet fine to me. =)

Actually, it's not that bad..
Everyone will have to be an adult one day, right?
And not everyone gets to do their perfect jobs, right?
LOL.
So..few years more and im an adult. HAHA.
XD
And then I'll try to enjoy what im living with. =]

Boyfriends

♥ 这才是男朋友，你合格
吗?
一。每天睡觉之前一定要
给她打一个电话，不管你
有多晚，因为她一直在等
你，只是她嘴上说不管。
二。就算你再忙，你也不
能一连好几天不给她短信
或电话，或者对她忽冷忽
热，因为这样会让她很恐
慌，是不是自己又做错了
什么。任何时候不要让她
找不到你，因为这样她会
一直很不安心。
三。 就算她跟你无理取闹
你也要原谅她，因为她那
是在测试你在乎她的程
度。因为她那是缺乏安全
感
四。你要经常去她的个人
主页，即使什么也不留
下，但是她看到你来过的
记录也会很开心。
五。你问她想不想你时，
如果她说不想，你一定要
很开心，因为她的不想就
是想。
六。和她发短信时，字数
一定要比她的多，这样她
会觉得你是在乎她的。
七。对她对你已经说过一
万遍的关心，不要不耐烦
的说知道了知道了，要很
感动的说谢谢，因为那真
的都是她出自内心的关
心。
八。当她关心你时，不要
说出：原来你也会关心我
这样的话。这样会很伤她
心，因为这对于她来说是
一种很大的否定。
九。当你和她打电话时，
你一定要她先挂你的电
话，即使她说了一百遍要
你先挂。
十。千万要记得她都是害
羞的，不要什么都让她主
动。
十一。即使最后你们还是
不能走到一起，记得，一
定要跟她说清楚，分手一
定要让她说出，因为她是
为你折翅的天使。
十二。分手后，千万不要
再对她说出以后还是朋友
这样的话，因为这样她会
觉得自己很悲哀。
男朋友就是每天不厌其烦
的陪你吃饭、送送你上下
班的那个人；
男朋友就是虽然身上没什
么钱，也会请你吃饭的那
个人；
男朋友就是早晨你醒来时
第一个想到的那个人；
男朋友就是能跟你打电话
聊到半夜都舍不得挂的那
个人；
男朋友就是在你最艰难的
时候陪伴在你身边的那个
人；
男朋友就是为了不让你担
心，无论出了什么事都要
自己默默承担的那个人；
男朋友就是手机里总是存
满你给他发的短信，直到
信箱满了都舍不得删掉的
那个人;
男朋友就是无论你是不是
漂亮都会夸赞你漂亮的那
个人；
男朋友就是常察看你的手
机纪录，确信跟你常联系
的都是你的女性朋友才放
心的那个人；
男朋友就是在你任性、耍
小脾气时，也会忍住脾气
不会冲你发火的那个人；
男朋友就是看到你流泪
时，为你擦去泪水给你一
个温暖拥抱的那个人；
男朋友就是就算你犯了错
误，也舍不得骂你的那个
人；
男朋友就是可以在车站等
你很久也不会介意的那个
人；
男朋友就是明明最不喜欢
逛街，还能陪你一家一家
的逛到你觉得满意为止的
那个人；
男朋友就是有着宽厚的肩
膀可以让你随时依靠的那
个人；
男朋友就是吃饭时放慢速
度等你的那个人；
男朋友就是总是让你走在
马路内侧的那个人；
男朋友就是过马路时会紧
紧拉住你的手的人；
男朋友就是就算情人节也
不会买花给你，让你对他
又爱又气的那个人；
男朋友就是深夜为你开着
手机的那个人；
男朋友就是当你读到这篇
文章时立刻会想到的那个
人
*****
疼女友的45种方式,你做到
了几条?
1.向新朋友介绍女友时，请
搂着她的腰，而不是站在
一旁用手指点。
2.在街上遇见美女凝视时间
不超过5秒，并迅速指出那
位美女与她相比较的美中
不足。
3.如果她做错了事，心里已
经很难过，请主动承担起
你应该甚至不应该承担的
责任吧。
4.听女友话的男人才会有出
息，所以，你要乖乖听她
的话。
5.她可以欺负你，但你绝对
不可以欺负她，因为她虽
然欺负你，但是每次有什
么好东西，她第一个想到
的就是你!
6.要是她朝你哭，你要不厌
其烦地哄她，直到她破涕
为笑!
7.把她的照片帖到钱包，手
机……一切经常看到的地
方。
8.离开她绝对不超过十天以
上
9.在她的朋友面前，希望你
可以表现得比平时更疼爱
她和紧张她的样子。
10.大男人不表示霸道.
11.温柔不等于没主见。
12.潇洒不等于没交代
13.不要老是在我问她“去那
里比较好”，“吃什么”等等
的时候说“随便”，这不等
于是你在迁就她，只表示
你没有心思搭理她.
14.要经常对她说“我爱
你”，否则她会假设你不爱
她
15永远不要在公众场合对
她呼呼吼吼又或是撇下她
一人。
16.她做错事情的时候教训
她不要紧，最重要的是在
那之后要哄
17.发脾气时不要不理她，
不要给时间她让她冷静，
其实她完全不需要时间冷
静。
18.可以陪自己的朋友，但
一定要重色轻友。
19.她看动画片，你不但不
准笑话她，还要跟她一起
看。
20.在她想你时，争分夺秒
地挤出时间与她约会
21.看她的眼神无比专注。
22.话的语气情深意长。
23.能做到客观的得看到其
它优秀的女孩，但主观认
为她才是最好的
24.有女孩和你说话，你要
拉着她的手，如果她恰巧
不在旁边，那么请你跟她
们保持距离。
25.过马路的时候牵着她的
手。
26.要懂得珍惜和她在一起
的每分钟。
27.就算再忙，每天都不忘
打一个问候的电话
28.要常常唱情歌给她听。
29.两个人都有发火的权
利，但不能同一天, 如果那
一天她发火了，那你就不
可以发火了。
30.女友生活中不顺心，你
要循循善诱、帮忙分析，
提出建设性方案若干
31.要非常爱你的女友---
她，坚决拥护女友的决
定，服从女友的领导。
32.留意其它女生不得超过5
秒钟，看同一女生累计不
得超过5次。
33.即使全世界的人都不相
信她，你也要无条件相信
她。因为她也会同样对
你。
34.她穿了好看的衣服，你
要衷心赞美。
35.严禁在女士(3岁－80岁)
面前耍贫，放电。若有违
反，视情节严重程度，由
女友从严、从快进行严厉
打击. 任何人、任何形式的
狡辩，抵赖都将按妨碍司
法公正论处。
36.不抽烟。一经发现立即
开除。
37.与女友吵架每次陈述不
得超过3分钟(含)，音量不
得超过20分贝(含)。
38.要加强锻炼，强健身体,
一口气抱她上到五楼
39.在她心情遭透，蛮横发
脾气的时候，抱抱她，而
不是和她理论。
40.希望不会出现手机没电
而她又没有其它办法联系
到你的现象，如果能频频
主动打电话告诉她“我想你
了”并随时汇行踪则更好。
41.她身上有很多缺点，她
已经够苦恼了，请不必随
时向她提醒。
42.女友不讲理是撒娇而不
是撒野。
43.她所有的事情都好想跟
你分享、虽然你不一定会
明白但是希望你会装做你
在听。
44.女友送的东西一定要天
天带在身边
45.最重要的一点：要永远
认为女友是对的。因为...她
是最爱你!

plan? no plan this year. just wack it !

i didn't know what to write until i saw some of my friends' blog. I realized something. i don't know how to say. not seriously emo or moody for a very long time already. but..not only that. can say as i don't really feel a thing. haih.. i don't know how to express my feelings.. anyway..i felt some changes among people beside me. i knew it since long time ago but i just did not say it out. told stee about some of it, made me feel better. i'll try not to care. but sometimes they are just too over. haih. blogs are not private. if we say something sensative, others might misunderstand. so a lot of people's blog are actually quite blurr. i'm not planning to have a relationship with anyone in this year. planned this since last year actually.. but our life won't follow our plans. especially my plans..so i'm not going to plan anything else, just see how everything go. either it's perfectly, or unperfectly.. however, i won't give up on what i want so easily if it doesn't go according my plan. if i have something i want. but til now, i still don't have anything i want. so i'll be following whatever it's meant to be. lol. kinda unbelievable i'm saying that because i never believe in such things.. now, i'll throw all my planning and see whatever comes first, plus i'll do whatever my mind come across to. it won't be without thinking. it's just without planning..i believe not everything will happen according to YOUR plan. hahaha.. i should change my attitude on my studies. i'm so damn lazy and i don't know how to do a lot of subjects. i'll be deadmeat! T.T i think this is where i should stop. i'm exhausted. nitez* XD I'll be missing someone..... shhhhh** xp

so long

yo...
so long time didn't update my blog d.
haha.
i'm so boring nowadays.
holidays gonna end, plus gonna take result this thurs.
kinda scary actually.
haha.
but can't do anything d la.
exam's over long long time ago.
lol.
i hope my result wont be too bad.
hmmm...
anyway...
things got a little kinda weird to me.
well..i don't know how to say but it's like sometimes i'll feel a little bit depress. haha.
it's just..someone told me girls should be independent.
well, some of thyat person's saying is correct.
but i won't say yes to all.
haha.
i know life actually has a lot of things we need to do.
i mean..i have a lot of things need to do besides some stupid feelings.
haha.
relationship seems...i dunno, bad to me?
lol.
no idea..
that's all for today..
XD


i miss ya*
=)

Feelings

I didn't know how to write this post because I didn't want people to know about this.

I just can't accept it.

And I won't want to accept it also.



Too much things had happened..

Maybe it's cause of me.

I think it's cause of me.

Haih..

I shouldn't do a lot of things that i did.

If I can choose to start over or I have that chance to start over, I won't make any of those mistakes already.

I'll try to control..



Hey, love is not just full with bitter and pain kay?

Like I said..think also about the sweet moments.

There won't be 100% sweetness for you to enjoy throughout the journey.

Even you argue all the while, well..I mean, even you argue a lot with your partner, please..please just don't let him/her go.

You can solve problems with them.

But please...don't let him/her go.

You'll hurt both of you and you'll regret.

Don't ask me why..I just know.....

Don't make ur partner cry, as you'll feel even more pain knowing he/she is crying.

Don't cry too much, as they will also feel painful knowing that we're crying.

Arrgh!! I don't know how to say this.

Just...appreciate the moments you have with him/her.

Don't waste it.

Absolute Boyfriend

Oh my...
At last I watched that whole drama and the movie finish.
I i cried at the end man.
That movie is so touching.
I thought only the drama is nice.
But....so is the movie.

He..that robot, name as Night is so loyal and faithful.
Yeah, he's designed to love her, Riiko.
Yeah, he's designed to be Riiko's ideal boyfriend.
And yeah..he's a robot that shouldn't have egos, shouldn't have feelings.
But Night, he loves her.
he loves her with his true heart.
Always be there for her.
Save her from any dangers.
Protects her from anything.
At the end of the drama, he knows that he was going to die because his main chip has been burning off.
He didn't tell her, but spent the rest of his time with her, loving her.
He uses the rest of his ability to recorded the last moment that was with her so to proof that he was here.
He even wrote a letter telling Soshi, Riiko's boss and loves Riiko, to take care of Riiko while he's not here anymore.
He's so so so caring and understanding.
Compare to normal humans like us..he has the most warmful heart.

While in the movie, it's a story after 3 years he's gone.
He came back.
But...all his memory about Riiko and his feelings were gone.
He's just a normal robot that really is designed to love Riiko.
When I was watching that, I was thinking what this movie was about.
It was already the end..
But...
It's not.
His memory came back...
And because of something, he finally knows that he knows he can't be with her forever even he wants to.
He can't give Riiko happines.
He's a robot that won't grow old like Riiko.
He can't have a family with her.
He can only love her even she's not here anymore in the future.
The love for her is really painful..
Riiko knows he's suffering.
Suffering from being a robot that couldn't be with her forever.
Before she wanted to tell him to let go, he already tells her.
He wants to erase his memory, erase himself from this world.
So Riiko can be happy with someone else that can be with her forever, grow old with her, have a family with her, and also loves her.
His love towards her is so deep, so pure.....

Try to watch these.
Nice.
I think every girls will want to have an ideal boyfriend like him.
Haha.
But no one is perfect.
When watching this, i learnt something.
Appreaciate what you have now.
Those people beside you...
The one standing beside you...
Don't ask for too much while you already have what you've always wanted...that is the love the one standing beside you gives you.
He/she may not be perfect.
He/she may not understands you too well.
He/she may not be your ideal boyfriends/girlfriends.
He/she may has some bad habits or attitude that hurts you.
Bt what is the most important thing is both of you love each other.
Interact more....among each other.

Everything will solve..


SMILE =)